January 21, 2004 I find myself in the middle of a divorce that I did not want. For two years I have been trying to make a marriage work that just wasn't going to work. Please keep in mind that my ex-wife tried for alot more years before that and due to my lack on foresight, it was simply too late. I have come to realize that I valued that relationship more than I had ever given credit before but as the old saying goes "You don't know what you have until it's gone....". Unfortunately there...

It's been a number of days since last I "blogged". Sounds something similar to vomiting or some other bodily reaction..... Never the less here I am. "The days have gone down in the west..." from whence my visions of joy and a semi-happy life came. I am a mere 22 days out from the final commencement of my divorce proceedings. While some small part of my inner-being is rejoicing in this knowledge the remainder of "me" has begun to realize the finality of it all. The joy that was once felt ...